I hate how I am slowly turning into the kind of person I said I would never ever be. I just woke up realizing that I am on my way to becoming the person I said I hated. And it sucks to find myself enjoying.

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I am really grateful to keep this blog for years because if not I could’ve forgotten forever that I had the position of peace officer way back in high school. And how I really did enjoy it. It was really a good decision not to deactivate this blog. 

But I have this attitude of hating to read old posts of mine maybe because I feel really ashamed of myself after reading. So, instead of leaving this account and creating a new one, I ended up deleting more than half of my posts here. Especially those three years ago posts. From 197 pages this blog is down to having 84 pages! 

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1. If you let yourself think of someone too much, you would think that you need that person in your life. But the truth is you don’t. You just programmed your mind that you do.

2. You can miss someone too much to the point that everything that you would ever see will be associated to that person. It will mentally destroy you. You would feel like you are drowning and that person is your oxygen. If someone makes you feel like this, try to breathe fresh air. Learn how to inhale yourself first so you won’t be breathless when they leave.

3.You can never own a person. Someone can never be yours even if they told you that they are. People are not properties to be owned. They could walk away from your life any time they want and you could not blame them by doing so You can stay all you want and you can not hate them for the pain.

4. When you feel like you are being taken for granted, you have the right to walk away. There is no use in letting yourself be with someone who treats you like a trash when you are a precious gem who deserves to be valued.

5. When someone tells you he would stay, don’t believe them. Remember, they are capable of walking away any time they want to. Remember, everybody leaves. You can not tie themselves to you so they won’t get away. They will always find a way out.

6. You can not continue fighting for someone who has long given up on you. Love is a two-player game. It would not work out if you are the only one who’s holding the controller. You are worth fighting for. Always remember that.

7. Even if someone broke your heart, it could not shatter to the point that it would lose its capability of loving someone again.

8. Love can never be enough. Someone can say those three words to you alongside with goodbye.

9. When it is all over, you should not invalidate the love that you once shared just so you could move on. It was there, it just wasn’t meant to last and you have to accept that.

n.a., nine things i learned from my previous heartbreak  (via themostawesomebitch)

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It’s not that I hate the world, it’s just that I would like to disconnect myself from all of you every once in a while. I’d rather stay inside the four corners of my dark room. I crave silence and solitude. I’d like to get lost with my own thoughts until I find my way back to reality. I can not talk to anyone because interacting feels like performing and I can not be your perfect little girl right now. At least, I can’t force myself to pretend anymore. I’d rather succumb myself with misery rather than putting up a facade that I am okay because I am not. I haven’t been okay for the past three years and now I am asking this moment from you to leave me alone with myself. You never even cared anyway.

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Don’t let people treat you like a cigarette, they only use you when they’re bored and step on you when they’re done. Be like drugs, let them die for you.
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